Renunciation
Monday, April 5th, 2010Thinking more on the renunciation of selfish motive and private goal… this is one of the primary reasons I never really considered parenthood. Granted, there is still time to change my mind, but I don’t see it in my cards. Sometimes, though, I wonder about my desire for children in my life. In many ways, I believe it is harder to put aside selfish motives for the children of another. However, I am learning how good it is for me. I don’t feel as though I’m renouncing anything; I feel like I’m finding something else. I often feel the desire to be selfish… feeling annoyance, resentment, and a complete lack of willingness. However, I’m able to push past this. As soon as I do, I feel my personal agenda slip away. I’m not sure if this would qualify as renunciation, but it’s certainly wonderful in terms of self growth.



